Narcissistic Personality Disorder

Very interesting:
Research has found that people who score high on the Narcissistic Personality Inventory are more likely to cheat and game-play in relationships, take more resources for themselves and leave fewer resources for others, value material... things and like looking at themselves in the mirror.

Wow. This is my ex in a nutshell...

I think I'll research this more when I get the time.

Twins?

A few days ago I started putting together a photo album for the grandparents of my boys. Originally I was going to make one just for the Texas grandparents, but it's turning out so cute that I think I'll put together one for myself and one for my parents as well. What I'm doing is putting the boys pictures side by side... one pic for each month of life. For example, the first 2 pics are their newborn pictures. Second set is at one month, etc...

As I was doing this it occured to me just how much my boys look alike! It's almost scary! If they were the same age they could be twins. On of the main differences is that C has blue eyes and more reddish color hair and B has hazel eyes with more blondish hair.

(I'll add pics as soon as the uploader is working right again....)

Updates on the Ex

For whatever reason I think people feel like they need to inform me on what my ex husband and/or his new wife is up to these days. Quite frankly, I don't really care. I have everything I need and could ever want up to this point in my life. However, here's some things that I've been informed of over the past couple months....

Apparently they got married some time in May... shortly after our divorce was final on April 29th. Nice. So now on paper he was married from October 2000 - December 17th, 2003 to Dana. From December 20th, 2003 - April 29th, 2009 to me. Then from May 2009 - who knows when. Do you see a pattern here? Hmmm....

I was also told by my cousin's husband (who is a Marine as well) that he ran in to Ron at the air port terminal in Iwakuni, Japan. He said he wanted me to know that he's a total fatty now lol. Those were his words...

Then last, but not least I was informed that his new wife had their baby some time in the last 2 weeks. I saw the pictures. Named him Isaac James. (Hate the name. Baby Ike looks NOTHING like Ron's 3 older boys.) Stung just for a second. I think it would have been worse if he was actually IN the pictures... but no, he was in Japan at the time. (That makes baby number 3 that he didn't see come in to this world.) I don't know about you, but I think that's quite a feat... 2 babies born in the same year... 6 months apart. Is the Marine Corps even SEEING this??? He just added B to Tricare in January. Now he's adding this new one in July. Geez. He's a real winner.

Ok enough about him. I just wish I stayed in the dark on most of this stuff. He's no longer apart of any of our lives and I'd like to keep it that way as much as possible.

Don't judge a book by its cover...

Today we had another great day at the bay... riding jet skis, playing in the sand and sitting around a bon fire talking. We went along with Josh's friends The Wolters again. They're a really fun family and I love hanging out with them! This time there were a few other families there that Josh and I didn't know. One lady in particular made me feel pretty uncomfortable...

While Josh was out playing around on a jet ski I was sitting on the grass playing with my boys. A woman came up to me and introduced herself. She was an older woman.. maybe in her late 30s. (I'm in my mid 20s, but people tell me I look a lot younger.) She asked my name and the boys names. Then she asked how I knew the Wolters. "Oh, my boyfriend is really good friends with them." She then looks at me, looks at my two boys under the age of 3 and says, "Oh.... That's nice." and walks away. She made me feel like I had 2 bastard kids sitting there with me... like I was some teenage mom getting knocked up because I didn't use protection.

Lady, don't judge a book by its cover. Things aren't always what they appear to be. I hate that just because I have 2 kids and I'm not married people seem to look down on me.

It's not fair.

Promise Ring

Yesterday Josh surprised me by bringing a ring with him when he came over for dinner. I was shocked when I saw this thing! Completely gorgeous! It has a vintage feel with sort of a modern twist to it. It's not an engagement ring... just a promise ring for now. It's one heck of a promise ring though! I told him that he didn't need to get me any other rings because I'm loving this one and I don't ever want to take it off! For now though it has to sit in it's box til we can take it in to get it resized. A size 7 is way too big for my small fingers...

It's time!

I'm so sick and tired of my clothes not fitting right. Of being tired and not having any energy. Of just being fat! I haven't always been over weight... What I wouldn't give to have my 18 year old body back... and 18 year old me didn't even appreciate the way my body looked back then. Geez, what was I thinking?

This week my mom and I have started walking/jogging in the evenings with the boys in their strollers. I think we have the perfect neighborhood to walk in. It's all hills and we live up at the top. Tonight's walk felt so good! I even ran up the last hill. If I actually keep this up I'm gonna end up having the nicest butt in a few months lol. In addition to walking/jogging I've been doing crunches and lifting 5lb weights every other day. My goal is to be down to 125lbs before B's 1st birthday. So I have til the end of the year. Seems manageable, right?

Creating new memories

Recently Josh and I have been seriously talking about getting married.... and while he hasn't proposed yet, I know it will most likely happen some time this year. We've been talking a lot about the boys, how we want to raise them and how soon he and I would plan to have another baby. We know it would be best for all 4 of us to wait at least a good 3 years after we get married to bring another baby in the mix. We want to be able to really bond as a family and have lots of good memories of just the 4 of us spending quality time together.

...and we've already started....

Yesterday we took the boys down to the bay along with The Wolters. They brought their jet skis and their kids and we all had a blast!